grrrrrrrrr...

heia!

how was everybody's weekend? relaxing? good!

anyway, i had a pretty good weekedn, after the party on friday i stayed up just barely long enough to try and write a post... didnt really work out so well...

saturday I was PLANNING on sleeping in, but you know the whole quiet in the morning doesnt seem to ring a bell with my dear host family... no, emptying the washing mashiene at 8 am with maximum clinking and clanking... or yelling up the stairs to get a certian someone up to take her dog out or just simply stomping around... ugh really, no sense fo when to be quiet... :P

so i got up. and had breakfast, and hung out on the couch reading and watching tv while said host family abandoned the house for various persuits... so relaxing!

so yeah, nothing much.

yesterday i did basically the same thing as on saturday, though i did go to Karro's school for an hour to try and help clean up after a party... we walked in and almost keeled over from the smell of the alcohol... dear lord there were so many bottles! i was told to help Karro and one of her friends to help clean the bathrooms... thankfully the people who had gotten drunk to the point of puking seemed to have gotten it into the toilets... except for the one person who took a wrong turn and puked on a sled... :P really, really gross... thankfully i didnt need to clean that up!

i ended up walking home after i helped clean some... there were a lot of people so i wasnt actually doing much... though i didnt realize taht they would give away the unopened drinks left over from the party after everything was done... mamma got a rum and coke... :( want.

anyway, today i again tried to sleep in, but you know the normal stomp stomp stomp and yelling from someone to wake up... oh and singing this morning... Kazan's birthday is today... supposedly i was supposed to make a cake... yeah right! not happening!!!

ive read most of the day though i did chat with Veronica (my sister. i say sister because we know way too much about each other... it's scary sometimes, but in truth we met in HS and didnt really start talking until sophmore year... she was way too smart to be in many of my classes! XD )

and now im trying to figure out some of the math that has been plaging me all semester since i have a test tomorrow that you know what? IM GOING TO FAIL!!! i might get 1 or 2 problems right because of pure luck, but really it doesnt really make a difference if i take it or if i just ask the teacher to give me the grade we both know im going to get... im not sure why exactly mamma is so insitant on me taking this test, ive told her that i know i will fail it, and i could be doing something that i actually enjoy and doesnt make me feel stressed. i figure im going to have so many tests next year and labs and such that I WANT A YEAR TO RELAX PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!! she asked me today when we were "talking" about the tests that i was here for school... ummmmm... no. im not! im here for me! i want to learn a new language and culture... math is cross-cultural, i can learn what i need to in remedial math next year, but the only reason im taking math here is because my dear Mum told me to, and i needed a class to fill up the total hours for the school requirements...

I HATE THIS MATH COURSE!!! i feel homesick when im in class, and stupid! i feel substandard and I CANT GET OUT!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god it makes me want to cry... sometimes i do actualy... i sit there ith my hand over my eyes as if im looking at my paper andjust cry a little... nobody notices. nobody gives a shit that im in the class anyway.

ok... anyway, im going to be angsty offline... i think thats enough of sharing my pain on the net... :/

send me a message, i like to hear from people. Grandma, you should write me an email because Grandpa is thouroughly un descriptive about how you guys are doing and all that jazz... he wrote about 5 sentances... O.o

ok dokker, vi snakkes.