SO i was just checking where my veiwers have been located in the world today (because the internet is a stalking machine and blogger likes to provide information about it)and i came across a most interesting fact!
the top place for veiwers today is South Korea with 17 page veiws. Then we have Norway with 12, Russia and the Ukraine both tie with 7 page veiws. and the US has a sad, 2.
i think my family doesnt care anymore. or they are waiting until tomorrow when they are more sure that ive posted... slackers.
anyway! thanks for reading!!!
Monday, April 25, 2011
The fruits of my labor... a video (hopefully) that required i wake up at all hours of the night... literally
hello all! går det bra?
i had a nice week, very laid back :)
on wednesday we went to the hytte! didnt really do much that day or thursday... but friday we went to a little get together... people were spearing pølse and karro devoured a few marshmellows and such :) i managed to convince Karro to forego her marshmellows and toss a frisbee around with me :) it was alot of fun! i ended up taking off my shoes for the first time in a long time! it was so nice to feel the sand between my toes! I also rolled up my pants and took off my sweatshirt... i just wanted to pretend that it was summer... it worked until the tide came in... and the tide came in really really quickly!!!
anyway, the next day i started my 24 hour project... i also started playing chess with everybody :) im trying to teach Mamma chess... its really odd that she hadnt learned before... chess was one of the first games I learned, so i figured that it was natural that other people learned it early too... oddness!
Saturday was another lazy day! thankfully... the day before i messed with my tripod so i was a little worried that the pics for the 24 hour project wouldnt come out all alike... but the only hour that was off was at 3 pm... that was also blurry because i took off my glasses, so 3pm is ommited... not a great loss in my opinion. there wasnt much change.
the other interesting thing that happened was that i learned that i can turn off alarms without waking up at all. i woke up at 5:30 panicking because i didnt take the 5 o'clock pick...so i ran off to take a pic then... but really the rest was ok, no really big mess ups after that! besideds the occasional forgotton glasses, but that was at night so you cant really see much anyways.
we came back home on sunday, and i immediatly washed my clothes. then i took a much needed shower! today ive been lazing around, except for when i struggled with picasa to get that freaking video to export, and when mamma forced me to eat lutefisk... it was just as horrible this time around!!! i couldnt eat the whole thing, i had to stop when i started gagging at every bite... IT WAS HORRIBLE!!!
anyway, very very boring, but relaxing... but im also exhausted. and rather more interested in the show that is displaying cordyceps fungi than I am with blogging... actually im a little homesick at the moment. Mum sent me an email that told me just how little time i have left in Norway and now i keep switching between "OHMYGODIWANNAGOHOOOOOME!!!!!" and "NEEEEIIIIÆVILALDRIDOTILBAKEÆELSKERNORGE!!!!!" and incase youre wondering there are only 68 days until im back in the states. O.o
ok, enjoy the mini video i made of the light at the hytte! i hope you all realize what pains i went to make it (you dont because im too tired to write about it). I will try to make another with midnattsol when that finally comes around.
snakkes!!!
i had a nice week, very laid back :)
on wednesday we went to the hytte! didnt really do much that day or thursday... but friday we went to a little get together... people were spearing pølse and karro devoured a few marshmellows and such :) i managed to convince Karro to forego her marshmellows and toss a frisbee around with me :) it was alot of fun! i ended up taking off my shoes for the first time in a long time! it was so nice to feel the sand between my toes! I also rolled up my pants and took off my sweatshirt... i just wanted to pretend that it was summer... it worked until the tide came in... and the tide came in really really quickly!!!
anyway, the next day i started my 24 hour project... i also started playing chess with everybody :) im trying to teach Mamma chess... its really odd that she hadnt learned before... chess was one of the first games I learned, so i figured that it was natural that other people learned it early too... oddness!
Saturday was another lazy day! thankfully... the day before i messed with my tripod so i was a little worried that the pics for the 24 hour project wouldnt come out all alike... but the only hour that was off was at 3 pm... that was also blurry because i took off my glasses, so 3pm is ommited... not a great loss in my opinion. there wasnt much change.
the other interesting thing that happened was that i learned that i can turn off alarms without waking up at all. i woke up at 5:30 panicking because i didnt take the 5 o'clock pick...so i ran off to take a pic then... but really the rest was ok, no really big mess ups after that! besideds the occasional forgotton glasses, but that was at night so you cant really see much anyways.
we came back home on sunday, and i immediatly washed my clothes. then i took a much needed shower! today ive been lazing around, except for when i struggled with picasa to get that freaking video to export, and when mamma forced me to eat lutefisk... it was just as horrible this time around!!! i couldnt eat the whole thing, i had to stop when i started gagging at every bite... IT WAS HORRIBLE!!!
anyway, very very boring, but relaxing... but im also exhausted. and rather more interested in the show that is displaying cordyceps fungi than I am with blogging... actually im a little homesick at the moment. Mum sent me an email that told me just how little time i have left in Norway and now i keep switching between "OHMYGODIWANNAGOHOOOOOME!!!!!" and "NEEEEIIIIÆVILALDRIDOTILBAKEÆELSKERNORGE!!!!!" and incase youre wondering there are only 68 days until im back in the states. O.o
ok, enjoy the mini video i made of the light at the hytte! i hope you all realize what pains i went to make it (you dont because im too tired to write about it). I will try to make another with midnattsol when that finally comes around.
snakkes!!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
oh hey!!!
I completely forgot to tell you all that i will not be posting on friday because i will be at the hytte! taking pictures and convincing Karro to play frisbee with me because Mamma bought one (i think especially for me because i am a fan of flinging discs at people) and I WANT TO PLAY FRISBEE!!!!!
anyway, no hard feelings.
god påske! good easter!
anyway, no hard feelings.
god påske! good easter!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
eheheh... guess who forgot that blogging day is monday?
HEIA!!!
ok so before you all go crazy on me, i will apologize, when i should have been writing a blog post i was reading manga as a way to try and calm myself down after freaking out trying to write a college essay yesterday... why am i writing a college essay when im already accepted to Concordia? i'll tell you after I recount what happened last week... or at least what i remember of it... :D
so you all know that i was forced to take the math test on tuesday... and i have no doubt that i failed... i managed to take the first half of the test, but the second half required a computer... this is totally and completely different from my vision of tests, so i had my pencil and since my calculator batteries died I had my ipod as a calculator... which i was scolded for using... so basically the second part of the test i was completely and utterly screwed. though it probably didnt help that my cat mania has been over the top recently so when i saw a cat in the parking lot outside the window with only 10min to go and 2 big problems left all thoughts of math flew out of my mind and was replaced with "KIIIIIIIIITTY!!!!!!!!!!!OHMYGODITSAKITTYCAT!ILOVECATSIWANNAHUGITIWANNATAKEITHOMEWHYDONTWEHAVEACATTHEYAREWONDERFULTHINGSTHATRULEUSWITHANIRONPAWBUTYOUHAVETOLOVETHEMFORITKIIIITYWHEREAREYOUGOINGDONTHIDBEHINDTHECARCOMEOUTANDBECUTEILOOOOOOOOVEYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
and thus my test ended. and not even an adorable cat could keep me in the exam room for longer than the time it took to pack my stuff up. then i was off to the bus and responding to the message that maja had sent about me coming to her school after i was done at heggen...
so thats where i went, bemoning the loss of my headphones. they literally walked off when i was testing!!! i took them out of my ipod and put them in my pocket and when i went to retrieve them they dissaperead in a puff of smoke... D:
anyway, it was nice to see Maja's school, though i know that i wont be able to go anywhere without a guide any time soon... its a maze, not a school. A FREAKING MAZE!!! "X( (<- for the emoticon uneducated that is a sweaty confused face. at least for me it is...)
then i went and had supper with Maja and her mother! and was really glad i did since Mamma didnt actually go home so i would have been sitting there waiting for her to see if we were eating together for HOURS!!! its fun to hang out with maja... though im kinda worried because she will all of the sudden give this evil laugh and say she cant wait to carry out her plot on me... she said she's borrowing something from a friend who also helped her solidify her evil plot right infront of me... help?
wednesday I did very close to nothing... I did go to the city and go swimming with Silje though!
thursday i took Kazan on a mini walk, and decided that after he refused to listen to my commands having a camera and not a leash was not the brightest idea for bringing home a dog who likes to chase cars... :/
friday i was planning on going for a longer walk by myself so i could get nice pics of Grytøy... but it was rainy and gross so i decided against it... instead I went and met up with maja! then she came over and we had a sleep over... after eating 2 bags of ostepop and subjecting me to shows that i never wanted to watch but she deemed i had to... they were actually kinda funny... but im never watching them again.
saturday morning I ended up walking Maja to the bus stop with Kazan... she likes dogs... me im not really a big fan. ILOVECATS!!!!!!!!!! so she bullied me into letting her take his leash... he was still a pain in the butt though.
after walking her there Kazan and i started walking back (after the bus came ofcourse! i know how to be a gentleman!) and ofcourse the heavens decided to unleash a wet and cold and flaky downpour... the wind blew this horrible wet snow right into our faces and by the time i was 1/8 of the way home the whole front of my body was drentched... DX it was soooo cold! poor kazan could barely see since the snow would catch on his eyebrows, so i would stop to wipe it away since i felt so bad for him... then my hands would freeze! just horrible weather.
anyway, after i changed i spent some time warming up, then i went and joined mamma and karro infront of the tv! we watched Braveheart... it was a sweet movie, though Karro thought it was boring... but then again she thinks all movies are boring... she is an odd child.
then mamma and i started watching 50 first dates, which is a movie i always wanted to watch. she ended up going to bed pretty soon after it started, but i watched it to the end :) just fyi, if i ever suffer from a type of amnesia like that where i wake up thinking it is one specific day of the year then i dont want people to cater to that idea. tell me straight out that i suffered an injury to my frontal lobe and tell me what ive been doing, you know what, remind me to keep a journal of what happens every day... im not very good at that.
Sunday we walked to Tante Berit's house. it was nice to hang out there, we talked a lot and mamma noted how natural it sounds for me to speak norwegian. :D she said it sounds as if i dont really think about it anymore. YAY!!!
then we came home and after discovering that i wasnt tall enough even with a ladder to hang a bird house i went to find the headphones for skype. I was schedualed to skype my parents!
ok, so you know, I love skyping my parents, but this was one of the harder times, all around. they lost power at their house so they had to go to my Aunt's. and i was too busy trying to get them to help me with a housing survey i didnt realize that there was somehting actually important to talk about that time...
so, there is a possibility that i will not being attending Concordia College in the fall. we finally got my financial aid package and the amount that i would have to pay has gone up... actually it has over doubled. I dont have that money, nor do my parents. supposedly one of the reasonings is that my dad's retirement fund is "optional"... -.- really now. who would want to work until they die? that's just stupid!
it was really hard for me to hear that... Concordia College was and is my top choice for undergrad studies. I love the school, i love the things that i can achive there. this school was most likely my dream school. and now im being told that after a year, when my family's financial status is actually less stable they want me to pay more money? its just unfair!
we have come up with a few options. I am currently trying to get advisors' help (from both Concordia and my High School) to see if there are any scholarships or grants that i can apply for. if all else fails i will withdraw from Concordia and I will enroll at USM... I am currently trying to fill out the application online, but it's kinda hard since I dont have all my information with me here in Norway.
If i am taking courses at USM i will try to save money to transfer in either my junior year or my senior year. it really sucks that I might not be able to be there for all 4 years, but that's life.
really, it's very depressing.
and then yesterday, I was terrified out of my wits. I didnt realize that when Mamma said an open house for håndball that she meant that I was going to be participating... *silent scream of terror* ok so my fear of balls being trown anywhere near me has been receding slightly since all the people in my class are pretty good at aiming and helping me not get hit so often by said flying balls... but suddenly i was thrown into a situation where a mass of little kids with varying amounts of control were throwing balls at a wall and having them ricotche at random angles! my pulse ended up going over its normal rate when im running... that was just standing still and having someone trow a ball to me, and then having me throw it on to the other person... it probably didnt help matter that the first thing that happened when i bounced a ball that day was that i bounced up and smacked me in the face... not an enjoyable experience...
thankfully I was able to escape when they had a water break... i fled to the bathroom to regain some sort of coposure... i was actually in tears by the end of that hour... i have rarely felt so scared...
apparently im a wimp... BUT! no one can rationalize why people have irrational fears! though in the case of flying balls i think mine actually counts as rational... and my other irrational fear being clowns and mascots? well i think that one is pretty basic as well. -.-'
after that horrifying adventure we went of a 2 hour crusade for Karro to get new shoes... ugh... really she couldnt decide between black and white shoes that beside the coulor look EXACTLY the same... and we had to go to 6 stores... i was starving so i ended up buying some tempura! om nom nom.
then we came home and Guro and her BF were here... i think his name is Michale... not sure though.
they were chopping up a mass of torsk much to my dismay. but i managed to convince Mamma to make fiskeboller as well so i didnt mind since i didnt have to eat the fish. :P
then i spent a while trying to write an essay. I sent one of my former teachers a message asking for her help with editing... no response as of yet... or she's just ignoring it. that could be a possibility. read some manga. watched part of a crime movie with Mamma and ate Waffels and drank hot coco with Guro and Karro and the BF before going to bed. an okay day if you exclude the terrifying encounter with balls.
today i have not gone to the håndball thing. and im waiting to skype my parents again so i can get some help with the USM application and say hi to my grandparents!!! cant wait! it's my grandpa's birthday so im going to sing the Norwegian Happy Birthday song at him as soon as i see him ^-^ i really hope they dont all read this before i skype them... then we'll have very little to talk about.
oh! almost forgot! next saturday I will be going to Tromsø with Silje to eat lots of sushi and get our lovely bellys and their gorgeous belly buttons peirced! Guro said that she might join us on this escapade! so im going to send her a text when we land in Tromsø :) then we will return to Harstad and attend the beginning of Russetida!!! a huge party that lasts all night!!!!! XD cant wait!!!
anyway... i want to eat some form of food since i havent all day... and i should probably brush my teeth... thats always a good idea.
vi snakkes!!!
ok so before you all go crazy on me, i will apologize, when i should have been writing a blog post i was reading manga as a way to try and calm myself down after freaking out trying to write a college essay yesterday... why am i writing a college essay when im already accepted to Concordia? i'll tell you after I recount what happened last week... or at least what i remember of it... :D
so you all know that i was forced to take the math test on tuesday... and i have no doubt that i failed... i managed to take the first half of the test, but the second half required a computer... this is totally and completely different from my vision of tests, so i had my pencil and since my calculator batteries died I had my ipod as a calculator... which i was scolded for using... so basically the second part of the test i was completely and utterly screwed. though it probably didnt help that my cat mania has been over the top recently so when i saw a cat in the parking lot outside the window with only 10min to go and 2 big problems left all thoughts of math flew out of my mind and was replaced with "KIIIIIIIIITTY!!!!!!!!!!!OHMYGODITSAKITTYCAT!ILOVECATSIWANNAHUGITIWANNATAKEITHOMEWHYDONTWEHAVEACATTHEYAREWONDERFULTHINGSTHATRULEUSWITHANIRONPAWBUTYOUHAVETOLOVETHEMFORITKIIIITYWHEREAREYOUGOINGDONTHIDBEHINDTHECARCOMEOUTANDBECUTEILOOOOOOOOVEYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
and thus my test ended. and not even an adorable cat could keep me in the exam room for longer than the time it took to pack my stuff up. then i was off to the bus and responding to the message that maja had sent about me coming to her school after i was done at heggen...
so thats where i went, bemoning the loss of my headphones. they literally walked off when i was testing!!! i took them out of my ipod and put them in my pocket and when i went to retrieve them they dissaperead in a puff of smoke... D:
anyway, it was nice to see Maja's school, though i know that i wont be able to go anywhere without a guide any time soon... its a maze, not a school. A FREAKING MAZE!!! "X( (<- for the emoticon uneducated that is a sweaty confused face. at least for me it is...)
then i went and had supper with Maja and her mother! and was really glad i did since Mamma didnt actually go home so i would have been sitting there waiting for her to see if we were eating together for HOURS!!! its fun to hang out with maja... though im kinda worried because she will all of the sudden give this evil laugh and say she cant wait to carry out her plot on me... she said she's borrowing something from a friend who also helped her solidify her evil plot right infront of me... help?
wednesday I did very close to nothing... I did go to the city and go swimming with Silje though!
thursday i took Kazan on a mini walk, and decided that after he refused to listen to my commands having a camera and not a leash was not the brightest idea for bringing home a dog who likes to chase cars... :/
friday i was planning on going for a longer walk by myself so i could get nice pics of Grytøy... but it was rainy and gross so i decided against it... instead I went and met up with maja! then she came over and we had a sleep over... after eating 2 bags of ostepop and subjecting me to shows that i never wanted to watch but she deemed i had to... they were actually kinda funny... but im never watching them again.
saturday morning I ended up walking Maja to the bus stop with Kazan... she likes dogs... me im not really a big fan. ILOVECATS!!!!!!!!!! so she bullied me into letting her take his leash... he was still a pain in the butt though.
after walking her there Kazan and i started walking back (after the bus came ofcourse! i know how to be a gentleman!) and ofcourse the heavens decided to unleash a wet and cold and flaky downpour... the wind blew this horrible wet snow right into our faces and by the time i was 1/8 of the way home the whole front of my body was drentched... DX it was soooo cold! poor kazan could barely see since the snow would catch on his eyebrows, so i would stop to wipe it away since i felt so bad for him... then my hands would freeze! just horrible weather.
anyway, after i changed i spent some time warming up, then i went and joined mamma and karro infront of the tv! we watched Braveheart... it was a sweet movie, though Karro thought it was boring... but then again she thinks all movies are boring... she is an odd child.
then mamma and i started watching 50 first dates, which is a movie i always wanted to watch. she ended up going to bed pretty soon after it started, but i watched it to the end :) just fyi, if i ever suffer from a type of amnesia like that where i wake up thinking it is one specific day of the year then i dont want people to cater to that idea. tell me straight out that i suffered an injury to my frontal lobe and tell me what ive been doing, you know what, remind me to keep a journal of what happens every day... im not very good at that.
Sunday we walked to Tante Berit's house. it was nice to hang out there, we talked a lot and mamma noted how natural it sounds for me to speak norwegian. :D she said it sounds as if i dont really think about it anymore. YAY!!!
then we came home and after discovering that i wasnt tall enough even with a ladder to hang a bird house i went to find the headphones for skype. I was schedualed to skype my parents!
ok, so you know, I love skyping my parents, but this was one of the harder times, all around. they lost power at their house so they had to go to my Aunt's. and i was too busy trying to get them to help me with a housing survey i didnt realize that there was somehting actually important to talk about that time...
so, there is a possibility that i will not being attending Concordia College in the fall. we finally got my financial aid package and the amount that i would have to pay has gone up... actually it has over doubled. I dont have that money, nor do my parents. supposedly one of the reasonings is that my dad's retirement fund is "optional"... -.- really now. who would want to work until they die? that's just stupid!
it was really hard for me to hear that... Concordia College was and is my top choice for undergrad studies. I love the school, i love the things that i can achive there. this school was most likely my dream school. and now im being told that after a year, when my family's financial status is actually less stable they want me to pay more money? its just unfair!
we have come up with a few options. I am currently trying to get advisors' help (from both Concordia and my High School) to see if there are any scholarships or grants that i can apply for. if all else fails i will withdraw from Concordia and I will enroll at USM... I am currently trying to fill out the application online, but it's kinda hard since I dont have all my information with me here in Norway.
If i am taking courses at USM i will try to save money to transfer in either my junior year or my senior year. it really sucks that I might not be able to be there for all 4 years, but that's life.
really, it's very depressing.
and then yesterday, I was terrified out of my wits. I didnt realize that when Mamma said an open house for håndball that she meant that I was going to be participating... *silent scream of terror* ok so my fear of balls being trown anywhere near me has been receding slightly since all the people in my class are pretty good at aiming and helping me not get hit so often by said flying balls... but suddenly i was thrown into a situation where a mass of little kids with varying amounts of control were throwing balls at a wall and having them ricotche at random angles! my pulse ended up going over its normal rate when im running... that was just standing still and having someone trow a ball to me, and then having me throw it on to the other person... it probably didnt help matter that the first thing that happened when i bounced a ball that day was that i bounced up and smacked me in the face... not an enjoyable experience...
thankfully I was able to escape when they had a water break... i fled to the bathroom to regain some sort of coposure... i was actually in tears by the end of that hour... i have rarely felt so scared...
apparently im a wimp... BUT! no one can rationalize why people have irrational fears! though in the case of flying balls i think mine actually counts as rational... and my other irrational fear being clowns and mascots? well i think that one is pretty basic as well. -.-'
after that horrifying adventure we went of a 2 hour crusade for Karro to get new shoes... ugh... really she couldnt decide between black and white shoes that beside the coulor look EXACTLY the same... and we had to go to 6 stores... i was starving so i ended up buying some tempura! om nom nom.
then we came home and Guro and her BF were here... i think his name is Michale... not sure though.
they were chopping up a mass of torsk much to my dismay. but i managed to convince Mamma to make fiskeboller as well so i didnt mind since i didnt have to eat the fish. :P
then i spent a while trying to write an essay. I sent one of my former teachers a message asking for her help with editing... no response as of yet... or she's just ignoring it. that could be a possibility. read some manga. watched part of a crime movie with Mamma and ate Waffels and drank hot coco with Guro and Karro and the BF before going to bed. an okay day if you exclude the terrifying encounter with balls.
today i have not gone to the håndball thing. and im waiting to skype my parents again so i can get some help with the USM application and say hi to my grandparents!!! cant wait! it's my grandpa's birthday so im going to sing the Norwegian Happy Birthday song at him as soon as i see him ^-^ i really hope they dont all read this before i skype them... then we'll have very little to talk about.
oh! almost forgot! next saturday I will be going to Tromsø with Silje to eat lots of sushi and get our lovely bellys and their gorgeous belly buttons peirced! Guro said that she might join us on this escapade! so im going to send her a text when we land in Tromsø :) then we will return to Harstad and attend the beginning of Russetida!!! a huge party that lasts all night!!!!! XD cant wait!!!
anyway... i want to eat some form of food since i havent all day... and i should probably brush my teeth... thats always a good idea.
vi snakkes!!!
Friday, April 15, 2011
haha! fake post!!!
so i would consider posting about my week but since nothing much happened and i have cheese doodles and a girlfriend here with me im very much disenclined to write anything more than this!
i'll write on monday!
Vi snakkes!
i'll write on monday!
Vi snakkes!
Monday, April 11, 2011
grrrrrrrrr...
heia!
how was everybody's weekend? relaxing? good!
anyway, i had a pretty good weekedn, after the party on friday i stayed up just barely long enough to try and write a post... didnt really work out so well...
saturday I was PLANNING on sleeping in, but you know the whole quiet in the morning doesnt seem to ring a bell with my dear host family... no, emptying the washing mashiene at 8 am with maximum clinking and clanking... or yelling up the stairs to get a certian someone up to take her dog out or just simply stomping around... ugh really, no sense fo when to be quiet... :P
so i got up. and had breakfast, and hung out on the couch reading and watching tv while said host family abandoned the house for various persuits... so relaxing!
so yeah, nothing much.
yesterday i did basically the same thing as on saturday, though i did go to Karro's school for an hour to try and help clean up after a party... we walked in and almost keeled over from the smell of the alcohol... dear lord there were so many bottles! i was told to help Karro and one of her friends to help clean the bathrooms... thankfully the people who had gotten drunk to the point of puking seemed to have gotten it into the toilets... except for the one person who took a wrong turn and puked on a sled... :P really, really gross... thankfully i didnt need to clean that up!
i ended up walking home after i helped clean some... there were a lot of people so i wasnt actually doing much... though i didnt realize taht they would give away the unopened drinks left over from the party after everything was done... mamma got a rum and coke... :( want.
anyway, today i again tried to sleep in, but you know the normal stomp stomp stomp and yelling from someone to wake up... oh and singing this morning... Kazan's birthday is today... supposedly i was supposed to make a cake... yeah right! not happening!!!
ive read most of the day though i did chat with Veronica (my sister. i say sister because we know way too much about each other... it's scary sometimes, but in truth we met in HS and didnt really start talking until sophmore year... she was way too smart to be in many of my classes! XD )
and now im trying to figure out some of the math that has been plaging me all semester since i have a test tomorrow that you know what? IM GOING TO FAIL!!! i might get 1 or 2 problems right because of pure luck, but really it doesnt really make a difference if i take it or if i just ask the teacher to give me the grade we both know im going to get... im not sure why exactly mamma is so insitant on me taking this test, ive told her that i know i will fail it, and i could be doing something that i actually enjoy and doesnt make me feel stressed. i figure im going to have so many tests next year and labs and such that I WANT A YEAR TO RELAX PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!! she asked me today when we were "talking" about the tests that i was here for school... ummmmm... no. im not! im here for me! i want to learn a new language and culture... math is cross-cultural, i can learn what i need to in remedial math next year, but the only reason im taking math here is because my dear Mum told me to, and i needed a class to fill up the total hours for the school requirements...
I HATE THIS MATH COURSE!!! i feel homesick when im in class, and stupid! i feel substandard and I CANT GET OUT!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god it makes me want to cry... sometimes i do actualy... i sit there ith my hand over my eyes as if im looking at my paper andjust cry a little... nobody notices. nobody gives a shit that im in the class anyway.
ok... anyway, im going to be angsty offline... i think thats enough of sharing my pain on the net... :/
send me a message, i like to hear from people. Grandma, you should write me an email because Grandpa is thouroughly un descriptive about how you guys are doing and all that jazz... he wrote about 5 sentances... O.o
ok dokker, vi snakkes.
how was everybody's weekend? relaxing? good!
anyway, i had a pretty good weekedn, after the party on friday i stayed up just barely long enough to try and write a post... didnt really work out so well...
saturday I was PLANNING on sleeping in, but you know the whole quiet in the morning doesnt seem to ring a bell with my dear host family... no, emptying the washing mashiene at 8 am with maximum clinking and clanking... or yelling up the stairs to get a certian someone up to take her dog out or just simply stomping around... ugh really, no sense fo when to be quiet... :P
so i got up. and had breakfast, and hung out on the couch reading and watching tv while said host family abandoned the house for various persuits... so relaxing!
so yeah, nothing much.
yesterday i did basically the same thing as on saturday, though i did go to Karro's school for an hour to try and help clean up after a party... we walked in and almost keeled over from the smell of the alcohol... dear lord there were so many bottles! i was told to help Karro and one of her friends to help clean the bathrooms... thankfully the people who had gotten drunk to the point of puking seemed to have gotten it into the toilets... except for the one person who took a wrong turn and puked on a sled... :P really, really gross... thankfully i didnt need to clean that up!
i ended up walking home after i helped clean some... there were a lot of people so i wasnt actually doing much... though i didnt realize taht they would give away the unopened drinks left over from the party after everything was done... mamma got a rum and coke... :( want.
anyway, today i again tried to sleep in, but you know the normal stomp stomp stomp and yelling from someone to wake up... oh and singing this morning... Kazan's birthday is today... supposedly i was supposed to make a cake... yeah right! not happening!!!
ive read most of the day though i did chat with Veronica (my sister. i say sister because we know way too much about each other... it's scary sometimes, but in truth we met in HS and didnt really start talking until sophmore year... she was way too smart to be in many of my classes! XD )
and now im trying to figure out some of the math that has been plaging me all semester since i have a test tomorrow that you know what? IM GOING TO FAIL!!! i might get 1 or 2 problems right because of pure luck, but really it doesnt really make a difference if i take it or if i just ask the teacher to give me the grade we both know im going to get... im not sure why exactly mamma is so insitant on me taking this test, ive told her that i know i will fail it, and i could be doing something that i actually enjoy and doesnt make me feel stressed. i figure im going to have so many tests next year and labs and such that I WANT A YEAR TO RELAX PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!! she asked me today when we were "talking" about the tests that i was here for school... ummmmm... no. im not! im here for me! i want to learn a new language and culture... math is cross-cultural, i can learn what i need to in remedial math next year, but the only reason im taking math here is because my dear Mum told me to, and i needed a class to fill up the total hours for the school requirements...
I HATE THIS MATH COURSE!!! i feel homesick when im in class, and stupid! i feel substandard and I CANT GET OUT!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god it makes me want to cry... sometimes i do actualy... i sit there ith my hand over my eyes as if im looking at my paper andjust cry a little... nobody notices. nobody gives a shit that im in the class anyway.
ok... anyway, im going to be angsty offline... i think thats enough of sharing my pain on the net... :/
send me a message, i like to hear from people. Grandma, you should write me an email because Grandpa is thouroughly un descriptive about how you guys are doing and all that jazz... he wrote about 5 sentances... O.o
ok dokker, vi snakkes.
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